My Pregnancy Journey
I was pregnant after 3 months of my marriage but then I loss my first pregnancy at 8 week. Doctor said we had to wait for 3 months before we try again. But for me, healing wasn't an easy journey. I feel depressed. I started to feel frightened, I cried for no reason, I screamed and I did self harming, I got mad easily, even I was afraid to get up and go to toilet! I just wanted to sleep and cry. It was fearful to think of that day. I remember every second of that day: alone, frightened, and physically in pain. Until now I can remember those scenes clearly and it still brings me tears 😠Going through all of this make me realize, It's part of being human to be down every once in a while. People who keep judging asked, why so sad and depressed? it's not a baby yet, it's just a fetus. Well my answer is, some p eople are just not good at dealing with emotion. It is hard for me and this pain is valid.g After 3 months of waiting, my body was physically ready to get pregnant ...
